I know i'm selfish. yes a weird starting point. I like having things my way, i like having things in general. I like living in my own little bubble without a care in the world. I know i have to break that habbit. I know i've got to think about the other people in this world. I'm not saying i don't care about anyone but myself, because i do love people. I love having friends and family. But how do you do break habbits when you life is fine, i mean do people want to feel pain? Do people want to suffer? Isn't it ok to avoid these things at all costs? Apparently we are suppose to embrace these things because they will make us stronger. But what if we are too scared that it'll break us? What if we say "Ok pain, i'm gonna give you the uppercut!" and then be cut down yourself. I want to say things to the people i love but i can't. I'm too scared i'll hurt them and then the friendship will be broken. And i don't want to risk that. "Can you not copy me?" are the hardest words to say in the world. I've never said them and i probably never will. I'm probably being petty, but when you want to stand out from the world and you can't because someone else does all the things you do to be a little different gets me. And it mainly gets me because i'm selfish. I want the things to be mine instead of everyones. I take it as an insault rather than a compliment. So i'm trying to avoid pain and suffering by not saying anything but by not saying anything i'm causing myself to suffer. So the choice is make other people suffer too or just suffer on your own? I think for once i'll be unselfish.